"She understood there was nothing she could do to make him change. Until he admitted he had a problem and focused on getting better, he would remain this way. And what did that mean for her? That she had to make a choice. That she had to decide whether or not she would continue to put up with it. That she had to form a list of consequences and actually stick to them. In theory that was easy. In practice though all it did was make her angry. If he was the one with problem, why was she the one who had to take responsibilty? And if abuse was a disease, didnt that mean he needed her help, or at least her loyalty? How, then, was she-his wife, whod taken a vow to remain with him in sickness and in health- supposed to justify ending the marriage and breaking up thier family, after everything theyd been through? She'd either be a heartless wife or a spineless enabler, when all she really wanted was for him to be the man she once believed him to be."
-Nicholas Sparks
Ohhh Nicholas Sparks.. how well you describe three years of my life in such a undeniably truthful way. Amazing how far Ive come since those days. Its a beautiful thing to be able to realize youre at a point in life when you'll make a decision that will change the course of your future forever. To be able to give yourself some hope, not hope for what you have planned, but hope for what life has planned.
